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January 16th, 2009 at 4pm
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barry white |
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So a lot has been happening.
i have a job at the sheriffs office as a secertary its very nice 8.70 an hour and im here right now haha. breaking the rules.
im actually single, after dating two guys at once it has showed me i need to be single for a little while, i was always scared of PDA but i really want to with my next boyfriend, and treat him so well and will not fuck him over in any way possible, even if its a previous boyfriend ive already have had. i miss chris. but i cant anymore, because he is about to date someone else, but im actually really happy for him i know people just say that but i really am, i want him to be happy. but it sucks for me because i realized what i had when it was too late. My sister is trying to hook me up with some boys maybe i should try it her way? no hahaha. but i feel content of where i am with men i just need a mature one i guess. someone who can love me. People always tell me im easy to fall in love with. the other day my sister asked me how do i make guys fall in love with me and hoenstly im just me, i wish she wouldnt pretend.
i love love love my friends it seems like all i have now is michelle mackenzie ally and megan. but im okay with that. there all fabulous! and i cannot wait for spring break 09 again with the gilder gang this year were going to disney world which is my ultimate favortie. you dont even know. its going to be a good break. ill be single this time probably so i wont have to worry about someone cheating on me or forgetting me.
3rd term of junior year is arising and im getting all A"S
im really excited~ youll see
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| summa lovin dead |
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August 30th, 2008 at 12am
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well its the end of summer school is tuesday werrrid.
i feel ill do good this year.
maybe.
so i had jaw surgery july 15 werid i like it i think.. idk its okay, but its different.
i worked at a mentally challenged camp this summer i was a camp counslor it was a life changing experience i loved it so much. i will do it next year.
this has been one of the best summers ever, like i cant even describe. very eye opening, ive made a few mistakes but ive learned from them so much. a lot has happened really good and really bad, things that i never thought would ever happen in my entire life.
i feel like such a more stronger person and i dont care about things anymore, only people in my life, idk i just dont care what peopple think anymore or anything i do, i just love everything.
i thank god everyday for meeting you
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| amerrriicann boyyy |
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May 25th, 2008 at 11am
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wowiee i found out who my true friends are. a few days ago. HA!
but my life is soo good right now. except one minor detail.
actually two.
my friends are perfect were all getting along except im really mad at megan.
but my family is good me and my momma are good,
im just have trouble with boys UGH!
im so lost in that caterogory.
and my sister, we hate eachother, but i really dont care about that.
eddddiiiee money was so much fun, for the parts i remeber anyways.
ive been seeing bre a lot latley and i like it,
but i think shes mad at me for a few nights ago.
:/
summer is about 2 1/2 weeks away yess.
today is perfect outside, i think im supposed to go over allys then go to grammies and go swimming and fishing.
YES i havent been fishing all year and now i can. yes
fishing=yes
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April 26th, 2008 at 1pm
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i have lost all respect for my mother and basically my whole family.
i cant wait till college and to move out and be on my own and never talk to them again. there so dumb. honestly ive never met anyone so stupid. im very disappointed. i feel like im the only mature one here.
but my friends are perfect. so i just cant wait to sleepover michelles tonight
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| sharpie |
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March 30th, 2008 at 5pm
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ah a lot has happened since valentines day. alot of realiztion anyway.
well in about 6 days i will be going with the gilder gang to key west. i'm extremely excited for sure. i love all of them, so i know its going to be fun.
my mom has a new boyfriend kurt barely know him at all. which is kind of scary because who knows one day he could rape and kill us all. im just so scared of boys, there so untrustworthy.
cooper is dime, and is almost right about everything all the time, (which i hate to admit). my trust with him is little but im trying my best to trust him, its only because i messed up and im scared he will want revenge on me. but too bad hes everything close to perfect and probably wont do that. i trust him. i do.
ive been fake baking ha i guess i look taneroxic.
ally gilder and megan sydlowski are who i trust the most out of my girlfriends honestly. there both perfect and both have great advice and always listen. they are my dime pieces. haha.
girls dont like boys girls like cars and money, boys will laugh at girls even though there not funny.
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| valentines day? or love connection |
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February 14th, 2008 at 7pm
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hahaha my life latley has just been laughter.
my friends are beautiful. and everyones getting a long finally.
i love ally gilder and mackenzie ferro we always get along.
my moms moving to north carolina. wtf? im staying though. but she keeps briving me to move down there. what a slut.
so ill probably be moving in with macky since my dad is honestly crazy, and ive tried living with him before and hell no not going back there.
my road test is saturday. im going to feel so gay if i dont pass. i think i will im pretty deccc.
so my mom was thinking on getting me a truck or some time of jeep thingy she doesnt want me getting stuck at all!!
eww i just watched a comerical for high school musical barbies.
whats the wrold comming to?
i wish my moms job would give her money i like my keatington home and i love the neghibors and how everyones here in the summer.
:(
its valentines day and i havent gotten any thing from cooper.
BOO.
i want atleast something haha
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| mono e mono |
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December 9th, 2007 at 10pm
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Well i came back to lake orion. ha
it was really too werid at the school and living with my dad you dig?
this weekend has been so random and so okward and so different, i have been really liking it.
i like random owkard and different situations because they always end up so funny.
my birthday is in 6 days;
the big sweet sixteen. ha. for some reason i really feel like being a lone on my birthday or just doing something like they would do in the old days. or i really liked on boy meets world when her and corey slowed dance. idk. megan will get allt he attention and ill just feel stupid. cuz im not as pretty and perfect as her. blah. but i know i will be with my friends no mater what i say.
cooper is perfection.
i had my dance recital today for pointe and ballet. i really do love pointe. its something i want to do for awhile since you only have a limited time to be a point dancer because eventually your feet get really bad.
i might switch over to debrahs since they take pointe more seriously, i really wanna push my self with point.
im doing so good in school and im so proud of myself. idk after going to rochester i feel my priorities changed. school is a way bigger deal to me now and i have all a's and b's.
i really wish me and my sister got a long. i feel like will be on jerry springer " i hate my sister"
i feel like i want nothing to do with her. but yet i want everything to do wither her. i guess it makes sense to me.
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| peace love and chicken grease |
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October 3rd, 2007 at 11am
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i miss so many things right now.
im at a weird unsure part in my life right now.
never thought it would get this way.
Starting a new school tommorrow im actually really excited, im going to stil hang out with the people from lake orion but if they dont bother to call me and not return my calls mine as well not bother. cuz right now im just hanging with who i care about and who cares about me the most.
i know ill regret saying this when im older but i really just want to be in college right now and have my job and everything all ready and just get married and buy a house. i know when im like 30 i will really wish i didnt say that so im trying to make the most of it in high school.
i feel like the world wil end before i turn 21 so goodbye to legal alcohol pah
im taking a pointe class which i love so much i really like ballet a lot. plus i dont know anyone in the class and it helps me concentrate and do better, ofcourse we talk and are nice, but i felt like in the other studio where i would laugh and talk to my friends all the time here im more serious and paying attention.
i miss seeing a lot of the pepole i used to see and now if i see them its from a distance and once in awhile an okward hello, well i just feel okward because i feel they dont want to see me, so why bother? i dont know cuz i stil have hope that, same person that used to like me is inside there.
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| hip hop helacopter? |
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August 4th, 2007 at 8pm
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Just got back from dance camp
lots of work but i feel like the team bonded a little more. i just still wish there werent those clicks and evil stares.
i feel i improved a little bit, and got closer with a lot of people. coach said she could tell me memory improved/
were buddies with the clarkson girls which i think is cool. except if we end up dancing with eachother haha both of our schools wil be mad at us but oh wel i think its a good thing. i dont like have enemeys.
but i think this whole trip weve walked about 7 miles? maybe.
im getting ready to go camping with mackenzie up north until monday mid day? im excited. even though i just got back from camp.
i cant stop singing the national anthem, when im a lone and im singing old whitney houston songs.
i want a job i need money there are so many things i want
nice camera.
pink laptop from dell.
clothes.
shoes.
school supplies.
paint and accesories for my room each wall is going to be something different.
jaw surgery or different applience in my mouth to help out my underbite.
also i want to start getting involved with things. like charites and i really want to do project shalom anyone want to do it with me?
i think hayley carpnter and megan syzdlowski are suppose too. but i want a bigger group.
i want to have a big party just with a bunch of good friends and have fun.
cali bowen and beccaluchs birthdays are comming which is exciting i dont know what i want to get them, i wish people would just tell you what they wanted for there birthday instead of saying it doesnt matter blahblah its way easier if they give you a straight foward answer.
summer is great i have been hanging out with wonderful people.
i just found out that katlyn hizleburger is probably the most funniest person ever.
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June 27th, 2007 at 11pm
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Life is a struggle but yet exciting and joyful.
I am just deciding to stop hanging around the people who make me feel horrible and just hang around with peoplpe who are filled with love and happiness.
I NEED CEDAR POINT ive been dying to ride a roller coaster even though im scared of heights and usually pussy out. im just wanting to ride one so bad. gashasha
I went to the zoo today with cooper, it was random and funny but really hott out but at the end when we were in the peguin exhibt it started to rain. yay. hahaha.
here are some pictures from it
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| your breathing down my neck |
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May 16th, 2007 at 8pm
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Ive been in a big mood to just watch movies i dont want to watch TV i wanna watch lots of movies this weekend i really wanna see sherk 3 and spider man 3 i just love movies.
and i also am in love with frosted cheerios.
My sister has to live with my dad this summer, that just made me so much happier because i am so relaxed and so stress free without her around because she stresses me out and makes me sad and just changes my attitude when im having a good day.
last greys anatomy tommorrow after that i dont know if ill watch TV anymore.
i cant wait for summer because i just love being in my neghiborhood. everyone comes around here and its just fun and its happy and its great i believe theres only like 18 or 20 days left of school! that makes me so happy.
i really wanna learn
i really wanna do better
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| imma shine |
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April 1st, 2007 at 7pm
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im most likley going to delete my myspace until i get my braces off. ew i hate braces, but i kinda want them on forever cuz i have this huge feeling im going to look like fucking shit without them. so maybe ill have them forever. ha.
i think i can finally say that im not judgemental at all. yeah i know everyone is but i seriously have stopped judging anyone by anything now after second term. im really proud of myself for that. because people judge me everday and i hate it.
spring break is in 3 basically days thank god. im really excited cuz my sister will be gone, it will be good to get a break. i really wanna hang out with a vareity of different people this break.
im a very happy.
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| show off that body you got |
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March 18th, 2007 at 4pm
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blahblablahblahblahblahblah
yeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeahh
i want summer, im so sick of doing school work.
but on the bright side i didnt get burnt from vacation.
and basically 2 and half months left of school.
i mean i like school, but it kinda gets old of going 5 days a week.
plus i miss sleeping in.
i hate being alone.
i always want to be surrounded by someone even if its one person just knowing that im not alone.
even if i dont even k now the damn person.
i wish my family didnt hate me so much.
i mean they really do and i dont know why.
im going to a ballet camp this summer im really excited.
idontknow how long it is though, i cant go longer than a week.
i really wanna hang out with ally gilder.
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| its my body i do what i want |
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March 15th, 2007 at 9am
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if you watch greys anatomy you know what im tlaking about
well remember that one episode where she drowns herself cuz she thinks no one will care.
sometimes i wonder if anyone would care if i was gone. would it matter? maybe?
it just makes me wonder.
i just got home from florida last night man it really made me wanntt summer real bad.
i cant wait for summer
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February 10th, 2007 at 3pm
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I wouldnt change a thing, i love everything.
i really want summer.
i really want my braces off.
i feel like dancing, i miss it a lot.
cant wait for florida in 28 days!
cant wait to buy suvioneris(ch cant spell) for my friends.
cant wait to start piano lessons.
im in a mood to run, even though i cant even run for 50 seconds with out being outta breath and having to stop hahaha.
im also in a mood for dangerous stunts and pina colda slushies.
what are you in the mood for?
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| you know just how to lie to me |
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February 5th, 2007 at 5pm
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i can say that im really happy, because i am but i just miss some people so much.
Did i do something wrong?
because please tell me im sick of asking but no answers, its getting really old. grow up and say it. even if it hurts my feelings id rather know.
because it hurts worse without knowing.
well my mom gave the dog away.
with out telling me or my sister.
so i think were getting kittens.
well i want a snake though.
i think there so cool.
i cant wait for disney world and summer akfheuoiayf
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| Time favors no one and if we wait-- we can fall in love a second too late. |
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January 31st, 2007 at 4pm
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i need answers to my questions.
but im too scared to ask.
i feel like im loosing everything all at once.
but im loosing nothing according to one.
i want to dive into a swimming pool of all my answers.
i need to talk, i need to get everything out,
but its stuck in a lump of my throat.
come out come out come out.
i need to say it and if i dont.
36 days till im outta here.
kinda excited but will miss people.
i miss you, the old you.
SCREAM
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| these are a few of my favorite things |
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January 29th, 2007 at 6pm
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haha megan came over after school today it was fun i havent laughed that much in awhile.
this friday im suppose to hang out with taylor lauren and mackenzie should be fun.
hahah gram asked out mackenzie today i think that is tsoo cute.
lifes just good right now
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